I wanna stop hating my own body….
I ate so fucking much today, I feel so full, I am so fat :(((((
if I were skinny, tall, blond with blue eyes and perfect skin my life would be 100% better
I’ve been dieting for 2 weeks and I’ve GAINED weight! How the fuck did it happen? :(((
So I finally weighed myself. I weight 53,5 kg (118 lbs) which is way too much but still less than I’d thought. (BMI,: 20,7 jesus! )
So by 16 february, I need to lose 2 kg (around 4,5 lbs) under the BMI of 20! which is not impossible.
by 16 march I need to get under 50 kg (110 lbs)
by 16 April I need to get 47/48 kg (105 lbs)
AND then what I need to do is NOT GAINING BACK
rather 1 year as a skinny girl, than 90 years as a fat girl/woman
If there was an option that cutting myself would make my legs look thinner I would cut them till my bones, I’m not kidding.
But it’s not an option, fuck it
this week my thighs touch more than usually. how is it even possible?
dad says that one only can be pretty if she’s skinny. I don’t think he’s right but I just feel so fat right now
when someone comments on the way you eat is the worst thing ever.
yeah I was hungry so I ate fast. Now you know why I look this fat.
I’m still fat in December